Just some stuff.

Job:

The school that I am teaching at has a bad reputation for not paying their teachers. Mostly it’s because they allow the students’ parents to get behind on tuition payments (it’s a private school) and then they can’t pay the teachers, which pisses off the teachers, and it’s no wonder they lose good teachers every year…

I have not been paid this month yet. I am supposed to get paid on the first and the fifteenth. First passed. It is now the third. When will I get paid? Who knows? I do know that I can’t live on my own when I am not even sure when I will get paid…

School:

The woman who does the student teaching placement at the school has apparently not read any of my emails. I told them that I had secured employment (shabby as it may be) at a school, and I would prefer to do my student teaching there. I told two people, and I sent numerous emails about it to various departments.

So when I got my student teaching assignment at a DIFFERENT school, I asked about it, and the woman oh-so-gently chided me for not telling her that I had a job at a school already.

Um….I TOLD YOU LIKE TWO MONTHS AGO, YOU DAFFY BASTARDS.

So she still doesn’t want to change it, and I’m thinking it’s for the best. If I get in at this school (public school) and they really like me, I may have a job there (PAYING JOB, THAT IS) next year, which would be awesome.

We’ll see.

Life:

My feelings toward this marriage are slowly turning from sadness to relief. My husband is a horrible money-manager, which has become more and more apparent as the years have passed. Champagne tastes, beer budget, and all that. He used the debit card in Great Britain. GREAT BRITAIN. UM EXCUSE ME DIDN’T YOU JUST TAKE $400 OUT OF THE CHECKING ACCOUNT SO THAT YOU WOULD HAVE MONEY TO SPEND OVER THERE???? JESUS CHRIST. He made me so angry today, I wanted to scream, but he is out of the country until Sunday, so I called my mom and screamed at her. She took it like a champ.

I told her it’s things like this that make me WANT to get out of here. I used to be sad about it, but now I am READY TO LEAVE.

I was VERY VERY ANGRY, so I decided to do something with it, and I did one of the Circuit training DVDs that my friend gave me. I remembered that the first time I did the DVD, it kicked my ASS, and I needed to have my ass kicked, so I did the entire DVD, and I feel MUCH better. I’m all sweaty and smelly, and I REFUSE TO TAKE A SHOWER. HAHAHA!!!!

YES I KNOW I’M TYPING IN CAPS A LOT. I’M STILL A LITTLE BIT PISSED, AND I WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS FUCKING PLACE AS SOON AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE.

My birthday is in nine days.

I am going to ask my husband for something. FILE. FILE FOR DIVORCE, AND FILE FOR BANKRUPTCY. YOU CAN’T MAKE OUR CREDIT ANY WORSE, YOU BASTARD.

LET ME LEAVE!!

GAH!

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2 Comments

  1. Shades said,

    October 4, 2008 at 12:03 pm

    “OH, NO!” re: the first 3 counts.

    But congrats on the kickass workout and the major decision made!

  2. karianne said,

    October 5, 2008 at 2:43 pm

    I’m glad that the tide is turning on the emotions. Remember, they do go back and forth. But, it sounds weird, ENJOY your anger. It can be so cleansing and productive. Hence, the DVD!!


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